Smile

I smile
With the tears in my eyes
I smile
With the pain in my heart
I smile
Time and tides
All gone by
But the scene in my mind
Still make me cry
Roses bloom
Birds flew
To a far away land
Yet
I smile
With the tears in my eyes
I smile
With the pain in my heart
I smile
Just to see u smile..

There is a part of me

There is a part of me

You are not aware

But you still pretend

You know me well

There is a part of me

Hidden from all

Some still swear

That they had touched me fair

There is a part of me

Closed and wrapped

He says he has

Seen me all through

There is a part of me

Lost in my world

She claims

She has found then

There is a part of me

No-one can understand

All verify

Me as open book on shelf

There is a part of me

That I never express

Not knowing you say

I love you still..

Needing You

Can you come back

I am missing you

Can we start again

Now that I am loosing you

Can you smile here

I have lost my smile

Can you climb it for me

I lost all my heights

Can we fight again

I am bored of peace

Can we chat again

This silence is killing me

Can we be together

Now that I lost you

Can we stay together

Because I am still needing you..

Palon main..

Ek choti si baat
yuh badha dete the..
badi badi baatein
hasi main uda dete the..
har roz jeevan jeene ka
ek naya andaz batate the..
magar jab tujh pe aaye
toh sab bhula dete the..
aisi zindagi ti
un palon main..

lade agr bahut the hum
toh roye bhi kam na the..
magar jo choot gaya tha
usse khoye kabhi hum na the..
har lamhe ko sanjho kar
har kisse ko peero kar
rakhte the..
lafzon main bayan na kar sakne wali
dosti chupi ti
un palon main..

rooth te to hum bahut the
mana fir bi tum lete the..
kabhi udasi chati thi
toh hasa hum bhi tumhe dete the..
ek pal main pyar
dusre pal main var..
aisi laakhon
unkhahi koshishen chupi ti
un palon main..

ab hai akele
tanha pad gaye hai..
bin aahat chale gaye
hum toh sote reh gaye hai..
alvida toh karne dete
shikwe toh kehne dete..
kyu yeh gile chod gaye
aise hi muh mood gaye..
ab to bas
bebasi hai
in palon main..

tum yaad toh bahut aate ho
har lamha satate ho..
tumhara har shabd
kaano main gunjta hai..
tumhara chehra
dimag main rehta hai..
najane main kya karungi??
tune mujhe dhoka diya
main kyu wafayein nibaungi..
yahi soch soch
mera dil ghabrata hai..
ab bebas hu
takdeer par hasti hu..
maaf karna ae dost
jazbati hu
in palon main..

Dedicado a mi Casper

Heart

I can fight with everyone
But not with myself
I can deny anything
But not what i want
I can leave u
But not my love
I can stay alone
Just in my dreams
I can be happy
But for showing off
I can top the stage
But for a moment
I can do anything
Just for something
This is the fact
No one faces
Reality is hard
But it lies deep inside
Our heart..

Ansuljhi Kahani

Woh dosti ti jo mujhe na gawani ti
Behti nadi si usme ravani ti
Hui ti yeh kab shuru
Kab aaya iska ant
Reh gayi yeh mere liye
Ek Ansuljhi Kahani si..

Mukaam

Kis baat se hai hum chup
Kya hai humari khamoshi ki wajh
Main sochti rahi har lamha
Na mili koi aas na koi jawab
Cheer liya main dil
Chaan li har baat
Ek kadi suljhane chalu toh
Ulajhti hai das baat
Din bhar tatola maine
Raaton ko roya maine
Har koshish hui nakaam
Ab bas yahi hai
Mukaam..

Ruswaiyan

Ankhane sawal ghumte hai
Zehen main..
Anchahi yaadien aajati hai
Mann main..
Kar jati hai
Bebas..
Laut aati hai
Tanhaiyan..
Na chain hai
Dil ko..
Mann bhi hai
Chanchal..
Kaisi hai yeh
Rut..
Har taraf chaai hai
Ruswaiyan..

Salaam

Jindagi aise maukaam par le aayi hai
Sabki kashti duur hoti nazar aayi hai..
Hootho ne toh salaam keh diya
Aankho me fir bhi do aansu le aayi hai..

Foundation

Endless expectations
Boundless..my dreams
How can they become
So cruel to..Me

For the time I opened my eyes
I saw the shine
Of the medals expected
And grades..I fought

A tonnes of advices
Lakhs of customs
Fun wasn't accepted
But in return wished..Happy

Now its time..
I have started a new religion
With all my laws
All new..Freedom

But still I wish
To have a tradition
Because???
They only laid..Foundation

White and unused

Piece of paper
White n unused
You can open it
Write on it..tear it
Crumble it
Fold it
Cut it...n shape it
Lately u ll throw it
Mark stains on it..
Make colors flow in it
It ll be your art
It ll have your dreams
You ll share your secrets
And fantasies indeed
Tear me
And torned me
Put me back throw glue
Make planes
Make meshes
After sum crushes
It ll be soon a waste too
I ll be your piece of paper
I ll be what u want me to be
But
Don't expose me in rain
I ll be again
White and unused..

I hate you

There was a time
You were my reality
There was a time
You were my smile
There was a time
When you were my dreams
There was a time
When we used to rhyme
There was a time
When you held me up
There was a time
We were together
There was a time
When I felt your presence
Then..
There was a time
When you became silent
There was a time
When you suddenly disappeared
Now is the time
I am alone
Now is the time
I feel you no more
Now is the time
I need you
But at this time
I hate you..

You

Choices are wide
Decisions are tough
I aint be right
We might even fight

I tried being real
I felt a bit fake
But all it takes
A choice to make

You don't see me
You don't read me
Its all about
Me..Me and Me..

Mithas

Tumhare saath beetien
har lamhe ko sajaungi
naam na sahi bas
parchai hi sath le jaungi
har wo baat
pyari si raat
khete hue ladna
haste hue rona
yeh chand din jindagi ke
kabhi na bhula paungi

Mile mujhe tum us mood par
jab saath hi kuch pal ka tha
magar yeh lamhe sirf mere hai
inhe peerone se na ghabraungi
darti hu jab tum jaoge
kaise main muskura paungi
tumhari inhi yaadon se hi
main apni zindagi
main mithas laungi..

Kitna bi bhagu..har bar wahi pahuch jati hu..aisa lagta hai jaise chowk tak hi simat kar reh gyi hai meri jindagi..hooslow ko sambhalti hu to himat tut jati hai..jab himat aati hai to takdeer rooth jati hai..andhere koono main se roshini dikhti hai..magar ujalo main kyu??parchai bi sath chod jati hai..jugnoo banana hai mujhe..kabil banana hai mujhe..na failane pade dubara mujhe haath..khud ki zaruraton ka khayal khud hi rakhna hai mujhe..main fir galatiyan karungi..fir ussi raste par chalungi..jante hue bhi yeh..na khud ko rok sakungi..dhundhla si gayi hai meri tasveer..bana diya isne mujhe fakeer..najane kiski taak me tha yeh..ab jaga hai mera zameer..jo sab kehte the wahi main karti ti..apne se pehle tera dhyan karti ti..ab mera waqt aya hai..tumhe chod ab mujhe sath nibhana hai..

Fall

Its the longest night I have ever spent
Times not passing
I am here and havent slept
I touched the phone and pressed the buttons
I m just wishing to get a text from you
Its been days I haven't heard from you

You are gone not near too far
I kept waiting with love still at par
How can you survive knowing that I m dying
With all my tears dried I m still crying

The moon's changing position
Bring a unpleasant note to me
That you are happy without seeing me
I see the stars and wish for your call
But all i here get is another fall..

Again

Again

The same stuff

But the day is different

A different texture

And smell

Again

The same anger

Useless frustration

Will not move me

Laziness has seeped in me

Again

The same mistakes

Puzzled as I can be

When will I learn

To be unhappy in misery

Again

More words down on paper

This will lead to nothing

Why do I do these things

Why cant I leave everything

Again

The same same

But they day is different

A different texture

But smell is innocent..